last time i posted was august 4th (well, technically the 5th because it was after midnight)

august 5
april came over at 1ish and we packed our stuff to take to calgary. sheldon picked us up at quarter to four and we began our mission.
we stopped at future shop in edmonton to pick up an ipod jack because his was messed up then continued on.
next stop was red deer to pick up sheldon's friend ashley. i was kind of apprehensive about meeting her because april & i arent always the best at getting along with other girls. but to our relief, she was the cutest and most non-awkward girl ever. we stopped at max and when i got back in the car with her, she turned around in her seat and was like "you're cute, I like your nose." haha.
next stop was calllllgary. we went straight to sheldon's relatives house and chilled there for the night. there, we had food to eat and sunny d to drink and we spent a lot of the night on the deck laughing at each other with sheldon's uncle.
that nights sleep was awful, i was so anxious about the next morning and being sweaty hot whilst trying to sleep that i got maybe 2 hours of sleep.

august 6
wake up call came at 8am and we got out of the house as quick as possible to get to the venue. we stopped at superstore to pick up monster and film for april's fisheye camera. then, as we were driving down the car and pedestrian packed road to get to race city parkinglot, we blasted against me! and all sung and clapped along. OH and listened to katy perry and all sang our hearts out. hahah.
we stood in line for will call until it opened at 11, got our wrist bands and went straight to work.
april and i shot for the first band, norma jean, just to test our equipment and get the right settings and whatnot.
then we rushed off to some other stage for the horrorpops...waited 20 minutes watching strangers set up... then realized that it wasn't the horrorpops playing that stage at all. it was automatic love letter or something like that... so we ended up missing the horrorpops. ): sad.
annnddddddd then to my horror, we missed the first big of reel big fish, so we couldn't shoot from them. so we just kinda chilled and i danced around. they'll be back in september with less than jake & the flatliners, so i'm not too worried.
next we decided to shoot for story of the year because they were playing at the stage next to reel big fish so we didn't have to walk across the world for some other band.
got some good pictures.
april and i often slipped in to the VIP area to chill, delete some pictures & all that kind of stuff.
next up was bring me the horizon, april's cute friend was in the crowd so we talked to him.
i got insane pictures of bring me the horizon... oli's usually looking right at my camera and he screamed in my face a lot hahah. april got some picture evidence of that, and so did i. i cant wait to post them because im totally stoked about it even though i don't like them haha.
then we ran our asses over to the main stage across the speedway and got ready for all that remains.
jeanne was standing in the back and she spotted april & started smiling at her, april called me over and i stood with her to watch in awe haha. jeanne smiled so big at the two of us, and called phil to show him us HAHAH. awe <3
shot for atr, learned they were having a signing but had to go shoot for gym class heroes.
after that, i think, we went to the atr tent & bought shirts, got a picture with phil and then talked to jeanne! she was so cute and so nice, you don't even know. i wanted to kiss her because she was wearing a converge shirt haha.
then we ran off to shoot for every time i die..., we only got to shoot for maybe 2 songs before security kicked everyone out because it got so crazy. so april and i just went and chilled over the barricade on the left main stage, and i watched the rest of etid from there.
we decided to shoot for the band... uhh, the academy something.. but they got super boring after a song, so we just left and went and chilled in the vip again.
went to shoot for katy perry, saw some friends in the crowd so i sat on the barricade and talked to them and left two songs in because we got bored haha.
next was evergreen terrace, brody tracked me down and i talked to him until evergreen terrace started up. they were my favorite band to take pictures of, they have so much energy and i just LOVE them.
april and i walked around & looked at merch tables for a while, i decided to grab a set your goals shirt and the merch guy was ADORABLE. he waved at us when we walked up and continued to wave the entire time we were there, even when he turned around to grab my shirt. hahah.
ummmmmmmmmmmmm
saw james and troy and jordan and nicmac and all them
went and chilled in the vip area
with dixon christie of punk tv, he fed us cucumbers & grapes & carrots, and we sat with the guys from some band & sky eats airplane.
thennnn shot for the devil wears prada
saw some cobra starship
did other things
idk
im getting bored hahah
but yeah
it was such a good day
&i didnt get sunburn
life's good

SO many people ran up to me. "OMG HAILEY!"
hahah
it started scaring me because i didn't know some of the people

havent really done anything since then :p april left at 11pm on the 7th, it was so sad to see her go. chris rogers drove us to the bus station & bought us mcdonalds hahaha.

stop being so hard to keep up with, lj! dammit!


....anyways

.... i leave for warped tour tomorrow.
i'm getting super nervous and anxious.
wah.

everything could potentially go wrong.
sdkgjjsgkjsgl

april is here
we got confirmation for two tickets & two photo passes to warped tour
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
we both sat there and cried for a solid five minutes
fkasfhaskfj
i'll write about our entire trip in a bit, she's going to stay with the cuvilier's for a bit. i'm supposed to get my dad to take me to get memory cards and batteries for my camcam.

i have pretty much no reason to go to warped tour

all that remains will tour for the new album overcome sometime soon and come back here
and reel big fish is HEADLINING a show in september, here

i should save myself 80 bucks, sunburn and heartbreak by not going.

i just had a really nice heart to heart conversation with my dad. you know, he's an asshole, he's rude, he's obnoxious, loud and an alcoholic (it runs in the family...) but i appreciate him and look up to him so much, you know? he's my daddy.
he has lost two really close friends in the past two weeks, Don, a man I never got to know very well but know enough to say that he was a very respectable man and will be missed dearly. And Myles.... myles was the kind of person who fucked up a lot. the kind of person that you slap upside the head and call a fucking moron, but love him and would do anything to help him anyway, you know? he & my dad grew up together, and when myles would get kicked out of his house, my dad would help him out and keep him occupied. he bailed him out of jail more then once, after leaving him there for a few days to try and teach him a lesson, but he never learned anyway. my dad would get myles out of trouble with people in school, or gangs/druggies and all that kind of stuff. myles never had much organization in his life, sometimes it seemed like he did, but it would disappear after a while and soon enough he'd need a place to stay and food to eat.
anyway i guess my dad and i connected on that level... i have a lot of people in my life who make a lot of mistakes in life, but i love them so much anyway and would do what i could to help them if i could. i'm not really able to help them as much as i would like to, i don't have a place of my own where they could crash or money from my pocket i could use to buy them dinner.

we talked about a lot of other things as well... my grandpa is going to retire, and my dad & his brother are going to take over the family company they have owned since i was probably 3 or 4. my dad & his brother, my uncle trace, have basically run the company for a long time anyway, you know? my grandpa started it out and did the business side, but it wasn't anything that my dad or uncle couldn't do. for so long it has been my dad being paid shitty for what he does compared to my uncle who gets paid whatever he wants to....uh.... do.... uhhhhh.... i don't even know. it's not like my family is poor, we struggled for quite a few years however, but my dad worked his ass off nonstop with no breaks to get us to where we are now. at this point he does very well, but i mean, if he becomes the owner of this company, all of us will be able to live comfortably for the rest of our existence. i do plan to go off on my own eventually, but it's so nice to know that i will always have my family to fall back on. that's what family is. i could easily make a living out of their company, i could do little to nothing and still be a major part of it.

he wants me to start taking photography seriously... i showed him everything about his camera, and a few things he never knew about his computer and he just told me that he was so proud of me for everything and he wanted to help me get into university and stuff. seriously, how can i reject that? how can i say no? i think i may go to SAIT... i've fucked up a lot in highschool already and i wont have much credit for university, but maybe i can take some courses that will help me out with the things i want to do. i don't know. i guess it would be a good opportunity to get the fuck out of st.albert/surrounding area and live in calgary for a while.

i also learned from him that i am norweigan. full blooded, basically, with the exception of whatever my mom is. hhahahah. thats pretty neat though, no wonder i'm so sexy ;)
we don't talk much, you know. like i don't talk to my mom much either.
about anything... day to day things, but rarely ever deep things and i never care enough to ask them stuff about our family and whatnot.

anyway i guess my point is that i love my dad. he's a loud, rude, obnoxious asshole but he has worked his ass off for me, my mom and my sister and i could never appreciate it enough. i love him to death.


april's still here, she's not staying at my house right now but she doesn't leave till the 7th or the 8th. last time i posted, i wrote about edfest
since then a few things have happened:
sunday
- we went out for chink food at the st.albert mood, sat outside for an hour after that and talked about everything.
- learned that our ride to warped tour is no longer.
- learned that the trip to chicago is no longer.


on monday i went to the nine inch nails concert, april went and stayed at the cuvilier's house.
i bussed to the university to meet up with erik
we waited around since 11ish
watched the tour buses pull in
napped on the sidewalk
ordered pizza to our place in line
i had special tickets and the people with the special ones were being let in early, at about 6, and taylor (bought my ticket for me) was running late and got there 15 minutes before everyone went in
i almost had a heart attack haha

the concert itself was unbelievable
we got inside, took front/center left at the barricade, did NOT plan to move at all except i left really quick to pee before the concert started
the guys behind us were darlings

the first band was SO ballin, the bass drum was so loud and everyone was just dancing away
the lead female singer was fucking mental, she was so cute but anorexic and ... psychotic.
no one touched me
but the second they went off, and setup for NIN started, there was immediate pressure on the barricade from the people behind us as everyone moved in closer

nin started on time and everyone just went fucking NUTS

they played over 25 songs in about 2 hours
the lighting was the most bizaare thing i've ever seen in my life
you would have had to be there to understand what i'm talking about because words cant even describe it
they had 28 perfectly coordinated spotlights with rhythmatic patterns to the music
they brought down these ... curtains of tiny little lights, and they formed pictures and waves and rain-like patterns,
it was heat sensitive so everytime trent would go close to it, the lights would spread open and reveal him
oh my god, it was insane
i cried half of the time because i just love them so much, and having them infront of me was like god sent

after the concert we walked around and picked stuff up off of the ground
i found some girl's wedding ring.. or engagement ring. it looks pretty expensive, im wearing it hahahah... dunno what to do with it

we went back to our car... and the lights were on. taylor left her headlights on all night.
low and behold, she tried to start the car and the battery was dead. we both freaked the fuck out and ran around trying to find someone to help us. we talked to the police that were walking around and some random guys in the parkinglot. both of our phones coincidentally died so we couldnt call her parents or mine for someone to come and give her car battery a jump.
i saw this girl walking by and i was like, tay, ask her just because

and the girl was like "OH YEAH!" i can totally help you
and she totally did
hahah
we thanked her a million times and hugged her and kissed her
it was awesome

then we went to mcdicks
and then went home
i love taylor, she's so cuddly and cute and yeah.
and erik and myles too of course.
AND TRENT REZNOR MOST OF ALL
for being the closest thing to go i will ever have in my life.


today i did fucking nothing because i'm beat, i have semi heat stroke and my ribs are pretty badly bruised.
life is gud :D
i don't know whats going on tomorrow
or ever
haha..

BYE!
ps i love all of you bros that comment my lj
seriously
mad love

well that was interesting
so april and i sontaneously hopped on the 201, LRT'd to &lt;insert destination here> and ON THE WAY
it starrted getting really ugly outside. which is terribly ironic because last time we went to the capital x thing to see keisha chante, we were chased out of there by a tornado so it was weird to remeniss about it with the weather getting scary all around us
(regardless, nothing bad happened, just some weird looking clouds, weird lighting and a bit of rain which at the time was SO REFRESHING)

in the lrt station we met three really nice natives... they were nice to the point where it was like, okay, are you going to mug us, knife us or rape us or all of the above? but nothing! they were so nice, the first guy started talking to us because of aprils hair color and then the other guy joined in and just kept up a decent conversation. he said i have pretty teeth hahhahahah i was thinking he was planning on cutting them out of my head. ALL RACISM ASIDE, HOWEVER, it was pleasant to come across such polite ...gentlemen.
anyway
it took us FOREVER TO FIND THE EDFEST STAGE THING
wldslflashgkasljfasf


and then yeah
watched some sweet band called dragonette
watched bedouin soundclash mostly by myself until tianna and gingy and their friend found me, haha, april did her press thing
they are such chill music, so cute and easy to dance to
and there was this adorable couple all out dancing kind of infront of us
so cute

ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
i found chris and posse somewhere along the line, sat with them and took pictures of them as usual

aaaaaaaaaaaaand idunno
then we ran our asses back to catch and lrt so we could take the last bus home
the strangest thing about april is that she has flukey timing and the greatest sense of direction
she basically just ASSUMES where we are going in lightning speed, and we get exactly where we need to be at the right times.
it's insane.

we got back into st.albert and basically the city fucked us over, no buses available and no cabs in service
soooooo we walked all the way across town in the creepiness of st.albert and took the longest detour of my life

anyway
that is all.

as much as i dont really feel like it, i might as well write now

- went to the show, ride from spencers dad lolol
- hung out with aaron and whatnot
- watched the first two bands play
- saw mike
- watched die daily
- watched fear before the march of flames (and died a little bit)
- saw brody walking around, went and attacked him (i didn't think he was actually coming seeing as i didnt hear from him)
- watched textbook tragedy
- watched means
- looked around for brody as soon as the lights went on, couldn't  find him, assumed he left/didn't want to see me
- went outside and layed down on the sidewalk
- saw ian
- the guitarist from means randomly came and sat down with us, suuuuper super nice guy. he told me my eyes were pretty and sparkly (and i laughed probably because i was ready to cry)
- talked with him for a while once the rest of the guys joined in
- he peaced
- we peaced
- carride home was depressing, i was holding back tears the whole time becauuuuuuse...yeah.
- fffffffffffffffffffff
- got home and my FUCKING garage door was wide open. i crept in and checked my dad's truck, stuff's stolen from it
- closed the garage door and checked the front door. open, unlocked.
- looked inside and it instantly reminded me of the most suspenseful scene in a horror movie. my house was entirely pitch black, which it never is. my mom always leaves the light by the kitchen sink on.
- i had a panic attack so i went and sat down on the curb for a few minutes until i collected myself and caught my breath.
- went back inside, called for my parents but no one answered. thennn my sister's bedroom light when on and she creeped out and was like "they're sleeping"
- i told her what happened and we both freaked
- i chilled out, had some rice and something to drink because i hadnt eaten all day
- uploaded pictures
- talked to brody about everything (we both fucked up.)

etc.
weird night.

so....
tonight was interesting... i dont know what to think, i had so many highs annnnnnd rock bottom low.
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh

i think i'll write about it tomorrow
i need to watch pictures upload and stuff.

i listen to fear before the march of flames nonstop.

there is too many people in my house right now, i could die

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaand its been fourty minutes but brody has yet to call

/stress stress stress

first of all i just had a crappy sneeze attack that lasted a good 10 minutes, needless to say i've lost a million more brain cells then i normally do every day. fffffffffffffffffffffffffff. my heads all weird now.

anyway
yesterday, i had a good day. i don't know why but shows, whether they're in the basement of a church, some crappy poorly lit venue or like rexall, they always just get me so stoked for like no reason.
yesterday was cope, hominid, die daily, this very day, shipwreck and maybe some other band, iunno.
it was in the basement of a church here in st.albert
weird
but deece
had a good time
saw some people i havent seen in a while.

nice.
katie and i walked home after, it was the perfect temperature outside and kind of raining.
at chinese food at my house.
yeah
i love her


today is going to be fucking sssssssssssssssssstressful.
but another show tonight
fear before the march of flames w/ means and textbook tragedy
and die daily
it's like my fourth time seeing them live
do not want haha

ugh.